Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Lady of Leisure

Manicures. Pedicures. 10 AM trips to the gym. Long leisurely lunches. Shopping excursions in the middle of the day. Coffee dates with friends at 4 pm on a Tuesday. Reading juicy novels for 3 hours at a time. Knitting baby booties. Wedding appointments. These are the types of appointments clouding up my weekly calendar lately. Well, this is not entirely accurate. But it's a possibility considering I am now learning to be a "lady of leisure."

What I should be is a "lady of closet-cleaning..."

It's hard to be a Lady of Leisure when you're used to being a Working Girl. You feel like suddenly, you have all the time in the world to do all the things you've always wanted to do, but all you think about is "what will my next job be?" If only it could be arranged so I was blessed with money AND time simultaneously.

It's strange how one's life can change so quickly. Just a few months ago, I was a single girl with a great job that took up all or nearly all of my time. My job demanded my time beyond the confinements of a regular 9 to 6 job, as I always attended tapings at night, early morning breakfasts, drinks and dinners, and there rarely was a night when I didn't come home at 10:30 pm to find one or 2 scripts waiting on my door step that would need to be read before 9:30 AM the next morning. The workload was significant and the pace steady and fast, but I liked it. I was accustomed to it. I never had time to be bored, or to really think "what do I want to do right now" because I always had something I knew I should be doing...

Now all that has changed. The only pressing task on my "to do" list is to clean out my office at Warner Bros. I have about 2 weeks left of "official employment" and though it feels nice to finally know that I will not be going on to the new company, what awaits in the future is uncertain...

As a working girl, I had a great boyfriend, who I'd been dating for years, but rarely spoke to about marriage. Now, I suddenly don't have a job, but I am engaged and am planning a wedding! Wow! How did I go from being an independent working woman to becoming a lady of leisure who doesn't work but just spends her days planning a big fancy wedding? I know one day I'll look back on this time and feel blessed that it worked out that I had this time, because when I do start working again, it is clear that I won't have time to plan a wedding...so maybe all this is a blessing in disguise...maybe there is a master plan.

Just trying to have faith in the meantime that everything will work out the way it should is the hardest thing...I know I will not be lazy and just expect things "to work themselves out." I will pursue every opportunity with tenacity. And I will also do some soul searching, because perhaps everything that's happened with the CW IS all for a good reason. Maybe I am destined to do something greater than just work at a fledgling TV network. Maybe I haven't even realized what the future is really going to hold...

All I know is this...being a lady of leisure doesn't exactly suit me. I can only best relax when I feel as if I've actually DONE something productive, useful, challenging...so whether it be cleaning out my closets, or going to the gym, damn it, I am going to earn my relaxing afternoons at the beach and weekly manicures. Hey, after all, don't I need to start taking care of my hands since I am going to be a bride in less than a year? :)